Fallout

After seeing her morals change after only a year of college, that was the big wake up call to me that she wasn’t the person I fell in love with. I know I posted something before, but this is the moving on post. I kept a box in a locker in my room that had almost everything she gave me when we were dating. When we broke up I wasn’t able to throw any of away so I put it in a Converse box in my locker. All of that stuff went in the box in January. It’s taken 8 months for me to realize she’s not the same person she was when I was dating her. She looks the same with some slight changes and her personality is the same except with some additions. All those additions and slight changes though, they make a huge difference. Being up until 3 in the morning worrying about her and telling her to text you in the morning so you know she’s ok because you care and her not doing that hurt. However, getting the text with her stating that she was in a state she never would have been in a year ago was my wake up call. I cried at first after getting the text. It hurt quite a bit to see the change in her morals and to know that she wasn’t the same person I fell in love with. After that I went into my locker and pulled out that Converse box from the top shelf. I opened the box and picked up everything in it one by one and looked at it. All the notes I reread and then crumbled up and threw in my trash can. The little red pouch I had that contained the necklace she gave me with her name on one side of a grain of rice and my name on the other, the little glass ball that she got out of the Ramune bottle, her gift to me on our first month which was a pink rock that had Dream written on it in cursive, and the red ribbon that she liked to wear either in her hair or as a necklace. I looked at each those things and then put it all back in the bag. I tied the bag up and threw it in the trash. The Ramune bottle went in the trash too. The corsage from prom last year went in the trash as well as the pictures of her and I at prom. The last thing that went into the trash was a paper heart she folded for me and it said L